The Fear

Well, School started back up this week. And I am not ready. Classes went well. I like the professors and am excited to get back in the swing. No big desire to talk about classes or work. No thank you. 

So, I want to talk about how fantastic I have been feeling lately. I played sports all of high school and have not been active really, at all, since I graduated (in 2007). Until now. Like I said last week, I've started working out again and I cannot even big to explain how wonderful it makes me feel. On days I don't have class, I am doing Insanity in the morning and forty-five minutes of cardio when I get home from work. Right now the cardio is strictly just riding a stationary bike, when it starts to warm up, I'd like to start running. Keep your fingers crossed. Really, I only manage to work out in the morning and the evening about three days of the week. But, I don't find that upsetting. I'm also managing to eat really clean and take my vitamins. My body is probably trying to figure out who took over and what happened to Katri. 

Anyway, I know I had a million things I wanted to talk about this week, but I did not set aside the time. Mostly just want to let you know it has been a good week. I feel good, am happy and excited for the next couple of months. A bit scared, but mostly excited.

I am currently loving this song by Ben Howard. Read the lyrics, go listen to the lyrics. Put a smile and your face and feel good. 

"The Fear"

Mama, cold hearted child, tell me how you feel

Just a blade in the grass, spoke unto the wheel

Mama, cold hearted child, tell me where it's all gone

All the luster of your bones, those arms that held you strong

I've been worryin' that my time is a little unclear

I've been worryin' that I'm losing the ones I hold dear

I've been worryin' that we all, live our lives, in the confines of fear

Mama, cold hearted child, tell me how you feel

Just a grain in the morning air, dark shadow on the hill

Mama, cold hearted child, tell me where it all falls

All this apathy you feel will make a fool of us all

I've been worryin' that my time is a little unclear

I've been worryin' that I'm losing the ones I hold dear

I've been worryin' that we all, live our lives, in the confines of fear

Oh I will become what I deserve

Oh I will become what I deserve

Oh I will become what I deserve

Oh I will become what I deserve

I've been worryin', I've been worryin',

I will become what I deserve

I've been worryin',

My time is a little unclear

I will become what I deserve

I've been worryin', I've been worryin'

That my time is a little unclear

I've been worryin', I've been worryin'

That I'm losing the ones I hold dear

I've been worryin', I've been worryin'

That we all, live our lives, in the confines of fear